The past few weeks have been a game of “just make it through this day.” My grandpa was very ill and had cancer surgery, then spent the next two weeks rapidly going downhill till his body finally gave up the fight last Friday. We were in and out of the ICU waiting room for a couple weeks, then there all day Friday, then I went to my hometown of Portales, NM for a couple days this week for the funeral, then Matt left for two and half days on a business trip. In the midst of those three weeks, Olive was sick for two of them, I was sick for one week, we had crazy awful dirt storms and everything around the house just started taking a back seat to our little survival game. In hindsight, it went about as well as it could and my family grew closer than ever before. Needless to say, I didn’t blog much and while I really don’t want to neglect my regular posts, sometimes life just takes over.
So last Saturday, the day after my grandpa passed away and we were in the short calm of the storm, we decided to have a “normal” dinner at home and thought it sounded super relaxing to just grill almost every part of the meal and eat outside.
Matt made a pot of BBQ baked beans from Rancho Gordo (we are part of a Bean of the Month club. No joke) And they were smoky and full of good texture and went perfectly with all the grilled components of the meal. We grilled a sirloin tri-tip steak and made a really unique green chili and tomato salsa with worchestershire sauce for the salt and it was perfect with the BBQ flavors and our grilled bread. Yes, grilled bread – it was awesome. Kind of a hillbilly bruschetta, if you will.
I’d highly recommend this grilled bread. We took a loaf of sourdough bread, cut it in half, spread vegetable oil and kosher salt on the cut sides and let it grill till crispy. THEN we mixed a clove of smashed garlic in with a half stick of butter and seasoned it with salt and spread that on slices of the grilled bread. I swear to you, you will never want another bread for an outdoor BBQ as long as you live!
This whole meal was so therapeutic. The weather was good, we all sat outside and enjoyed the smell of the grill, the breeze was actually gentle instead of tornado-like, and even the kid was transfixed by her surroundings long enough to just SIT and eat. I think everyone needs to take a break from time to time. A break from all the performing we find ourselves doing. I feel like I perform with my photography, with this blog, with just about everything that is broadcast on social media. And maybe in times where we find it very hard to STOP performing for everyone, life throws us an unavoidable circumstance that forces us to simplify and slow down. Only God could restore my energy at a time like this. Only God could bring families closer out of death. And only God would design food to be so comforting and satisfying that one meal would have the ability to inflate my entire family’s sails just a little bit more than before the meal began.
There will be a steadier stream of posts coming, now. I THINK most of the drama is at a standstill for now. Thank you for being patient!